Tales of my depression of late and other events….

The worst periods were from 2020-2022. Now the U.S. is having a secret war with Russia everyone knows about but I’m managing pretty good. Again, my humor is growing darker by the day.

I still have my flashes of haunting memories about my mother’s death and my past failures and difficulties in other family areas but I can breath better now. My daily work days easier because of the thought that I really don’t have the time nor do I want to spare any for the shit.

What’s changed? I’m taking control of my time.

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My days are a lot more ordered to a daily schedule. All intentional. I ended 2022 in the month of December by rescheduling my day work, my writing and my entertainment. Everyday I am squeezing in what I can. To maximize my time to achieve current goals for Present and the future.

I also included time to start two business and to study philosophy and time for my spiritual growth.

I’m in my sixth month of 2023 and I’m noticing changes in my mood and my perception of time. 24h hours. It doesn’t seem like a short time span when your younger and in school or wasting away. But,, I’ve learned twenty-four hours is a short span of time.. I’ve had to automatic a few tasks and make an analysis on the cost of what I spend my time on and how I can off set that cost by reordering my life toward other activities better for my mind and wallet.

My mind is more on the present and future so I spend less energy on less productive time wasting habits. Time is valuable to me. Money I see as a tool to achieve the means of owning every minute and second of my time I have left.

I have a ten year plan now and I can already see current things in life having to be adjusted along the way. I don’t plan on having job in the next twenty years and I for damn sure have to fill that time in my calendar for something else.

Warm Regards

Guardiandogg

Freedom isn’t free but people will trade it any day of the week for comfort.

Do I really live in a free and just society? I don’t know. I don’t think so most of the time when some dude in a uniform comes up to me and deems to address me for no other reason but to tell me what to do. I’ve broken no laws and said shit all to anyone but this asshole deems to tell me what to do and doesn’t have the proper diction to do it in a civil respectful tone.

I’m a gentleman though it may not seem that way from all my bullshiting and what not. But, I trully believe there is a right way and wrong way to do something.

If you are so inclined to do your “governmental job” and tell me of a policy you have in your area for me to where a mask please be as polite as possible to me.

Why?

Well, I am not your slave and you aren’t Robert Frost. So I owe you no respect but what is common western civility.

I repeat. I am not the slave to any man or woman. Fuck what happened in the past and what’s going on now. I am not your bitch or beta bitch simp.

I like civil talk. It’s what’s saves us all from being beaten down with a rock or shot on sight for crossing the red line and stepping into the wrong fucking saloon and filled bullets instead of a bottle of Jack Daniel’s.

Respect of humanity and respect of individual earned worth. I like the former and hold the later.

Piss on either of the two and you got a problem with me. You got a big problem. I do not tolerate disrespect just to validate your fears or your true concerns.

My skin folk have a saying. You better watch your mouth before you sign a check your ass can’t cash.

I say fuck you and fuck your concerns. You need to be concerned about how I will react to your shit.

I get it. We the people have signed our freedoms away for a vaccine to releave our fears.

But, some of us can only tolerate so much of this bullshit for so long. I can tolerate bullshit but not disrespect. Is anyone else have a similar mindset?

Warm, Regards

Guardiandogg