What do you do when you find yourself in a environment of chaos and anger? You desire love and care and only get it in minor moments and then heavy moments of rage from a partner from a family member.
Some times you have to get through those moments. You can’t run away. What do you do when you are striving for a peaceful voice in the void.
Close your eyes and open your mouth or speak with in yourself and be that voice.
You don’t need a hero with a cap to come to the rescue. You are that voice. You have to choose though. You have to actively choose to love yourself and rescue yourself.
Strange times we’re headed into again I’m reminded of the 2021. The clock goes back in my head. A time I actively chose to live each day like I’m here. I’m alive and I’m here for the smoke, the conflict and the comedy.
Life. The good, The bad and The in between moments we’re all embarrassed that five year old child called us on our bullshit. Life is worth living. Even in those moments life appears to have not a damn meaning at all. Life is worth living to achieve what you value the most to do. What value the most to put your heart into.
Why?!
Because I said so.
I believe so.
Because that’s the secret. We all keep going on this road because the sets of beliefs and philosophy handed down to us and the gems we find along the way that keeps moving. Anybody that says otherwise is can go fuck him, her and itself back to the shit hole they came out of. I don’t want to hear it. I fight against anything that drags me down and away from the belief I hold while I’m living on this spinning mud ball of a crazy, beautiful world.
Yes. Life is a game. Yes. You can lose. But, what’s worse in life is purposefully losing. Getting in your own way or just not giving a fuck to pursue a prize you fixed your mind to.
Does it matter? It matters a hell of a lot to me because I know what losing is like and know what winning feels like. Losing and depression go hand in hand. The mindset behind “does it matter if I try?” Does it matter if I push myself a little harder give it everything I have is some bullshit.
“IT DOESN’T MATTER IF YOU WIN BY AN INCH OR A MILE. WINNING IS WINNING.’ @FASTFAMILY DOMINIC TORETTO
Do you know who losing matters most too? Your enemies with friendly masks and your internal doubts that spring up to get in the way of your rise and progress forward. Life is competitive and there is always a given moment your in the mud wrestling your way for a winning pin against another foe.
So fuck not trying. Fuck self doubts. Fuck depression and fuck anybody that gets in my way of the pursuit of the win. The opposition is real in life. I am not surprised when people attempt to get in my way. I am annoyed when events happen to block me but I am not surprised nor am I backing up.
I am pushing through and when I can I’ll enjoy the ride along the way. I will sleep win I am dead. I’m alive now so the struggle is on but am not to deterred because I’m on the move.
I used to live my life on autopilot looking for chances for someone to give me a chance to get to be who I wanted to be. To get where I wanted to go. The day I started living was the day I started putting the responsibility on myself to actively play to win.
LIFE IS A GAME
I was late to this thought process in my life in the second stage but I wasn’t late to the concept of gaming. I’ve been a gamer all my life. The game of life has end goal and set timer for when your part in it will be over. I’ve never been afraid of dying or the afterlife.
PURPOSE
That’s what I care about. I’ve always cared about.
“Un intentional life isn’t a life at all” – unknown.
I don’t know who said it. It’s the thought or idea of living without a sense of intention was the thought or feeling that I was afraid. Not living to be engaged in what I am doing while I’m awake.
I have to have a goal. We all have to have a direction for the course we’re on in life. It’s what makes life’s moments mean something. Purpose and intention.
I reflect on this from time to time. I remind myself with books, videos and art, philosophy to remind myself. I need… to
FOCUS ON THE WIN
I’m not trying to do a lot. I’m trying to focus on my attention on the win and reasons for why I do what I do. That’s the mindset I have. I WANT TO WIN AND I’M GOING TO WIN.
No matter what trials or difficulties I have in life. I am going to rise up to the top and win. I have coasted through my life in the past but one thing was always the same. Whether they be challenges or challengers to my own process nothing has ever stopped me from doing what I got a focus or determination to do and I encourage anyone around with the same message….
Don’t quit. PLAY TO WIN.
I leave you with this video below. It is a favorite moment in a great Chinese epic drama. One man against the forces of nature and a QUEEN BITCH OF THE EAST that want to see him fail and die against a challenge for his life.
This is but one more example of the reason that blackpill ideology is shit and a poison to the mind of any young man. It feeds into stagnation of the mind and despair in achieving anything of one’s self in this world.
I thought to put this in the previous argument but this video alone should speak for itself.
This is not an attack on the younger man. This is an attack on the ideology trying to poison his progress in the world. For the young man to be saved the posion must treated and cured.
