Not withstanding my artist side and my need to always improve. I also have another side that adds fuel to my art.
I can’t give up.
I know what it’s like to look at your shit and think this is shit. When in the fuck will this get better. I got no answer from the void only silence.
The answer came to me over the course of having to deal with bullshit to get shit done. Yeah. It’s bullshit now but if I can keep working at it. If I keep being going. It won’t be shit forever. One day I’ll figure out. One day I say what I wanted to say. One day my sentences will make sense and my verbiage will be clear.
One day…but I can’t get to the one day if I give up now. I’ll only have shit to look forward to. So. I can’t give up.
You think my shit is good now. Just wait ten years from now. Persistents pays and only losers quit the marathon before they finish the race.